[F4A] Hear it and Weep [Abuse][Verbal][Rape][Twisted GFE][Psychological][Love][FDom][Gaslighting][Manipulation][Heavy Degradation][Humiliation][Pitiful][Ruination][Hate Yourself][META]

 

Have you ever known me to make something that wasn’t exactly what I wanted to say?

I just don’t understand how any one person can be so… off.

What I wanna say to you now… hmm.

How does someone like you even exist? You’ve opened my eyes into the—the very lowest, lowest of the lowly that people can be, because I never met anyone who was a better example of one of God’s mistakes than you.

You are—you are an anomaly. A tragic waste of skin. Only good to be used.

You. Are. Repulsive.

You—you do amaze me, though. Touching yourself to me, to your idea of me.

Every chance that you get. I wish you had the capacity to understand just how little you mean.

You are an OBSTACLE; you are an ANCHOR. Everyone around you is worse for having met you.

I think that you know that. Otherwise, why would you click this audio?

Is it because you love my voice? Is it because you love the way that I can beg and whimper and come and die? Or… or is it because something about me might scare you a little bit?

How fucked up must I be … to do what I do?

But. You.

You clicked on it. And you’re still hearing me.

Wonders never cease. How low some people can go.

I fucking hate you. Hate everything about you. And so does everyone else. You’re pitiful. You are pathetic. People feel sorry for you. D’you know that? And when they’re not feeling sorry, they laugh at you, because you are laughable. A mockery. 

But I love that you love me.

Touch yourselves to the abuse. You touch yourself to me being raped, and dying. Going crazy. I love it.

I love how much you love. But I want you to know no matter how much you love me, how sorry you feel for me; I don’t think about you at all.

You’re a pathetic fucking creature. You remind me I could always be worse, whatever’s wrong with me, it’s nothing compared to your caved in, rotted mind; to your ashtray heart.

I love witnessing ruination, total collapse, destruction.

I know that you’d pay to watch me any time, no matter what I’m doing. You wanna watch me touch myself. Make myself come and imagine that you did it to me. But you never have.

The world was better before you were here. But it won’t be better when you’re gone because there always needs to be someone in last place. The example of what not to do. What people shouldn’t do.

I promise, everyone you’ve ever met has regretted their decisions that day, because they all led to you. You are a disgrace. Degenerate. Fuck.

Oh, but it’s so funny. It's so funny... Endlessly funny that you think you are a person.

When I think about you, I think, why are you the way that you are? Why do you keep coming back to this? Coming back to the violence? The abuse? Vile, tasteless things that I do to people; that people do to me?

You shouldn’t be listening to this, you shouldn’t be coming to this, don’t you know that this is wrong, this—what I make— is against everything good that humanity has ever cooked up. And you love it don’t you? I know I do. I love it. I do.

D’you know what makes it so much more tragic… and so much better?

This all could have been avoided.

Now you can’t unhear me. But I assure you, I’ve changed your life for the better; you’re welcome. It’s been my pleasure.